It`s OK to look awkward in pictures

Portobello Road Market

I am one of the worst bloggers out there and I`m not just saying that to gain your sympathy. But I`m the type of person that goes with the flow and has little structure. I know that`s not entirely OK, but at the same time, I believe that too much discipline ruins my creativity. I plan my posts in advance, but when I write them I do as the good ol` Virginia Woolf and go through the whole stream of consciousness process. Granted, my unfiltered ramblings don`t have great literary value, but at least they keep you entertained. 


Ok, so where were we? Yesterday I went to Portobello Road Market with my husband. I love vintage clothes and jewellery, so that`s the main reason I wanted to go. But I`ll admit, I wanted to take some pictures in front of the colourful doors as well. And then we got there and I felt a bit underwhelmed. Everywhere you were looking there were these stunning girls that were taking better pictures than the Hadids. And then there was me.

The thing is: I wasn`t always like that. Perhaps I wasn`t a professional, but I knew how to pose. And then everything went to shit when I started gaining weight. Somehow I lost my confidence. And before anyone starts yelling at me: No, I don`t believe that you have to be skinny in order to be confident. That`s not the point of my statement. I`m just saying that it was difficult to adjust to all these changes in such a short time.

Confidence comes from within and sadly, for a long time I`ve let my health problems control my life. In my eyes, I looked like shit so I`ve felt like shit. But I`m working on that. It`s the main reason why I want to do more fashion posts and come out of my shell. And yes, I`ll probably look awkward compared to other people. But that`s fine because we`re all different. Some of us are shy and others are outgoing, but one thing we have in common is that we`d all like to change something about our appearance. And isn`t that sad? 

You see, the girls I`ve seen in Portobello were gorgeous. And so many of them were unhappy with their pictures. I have a double chin. I look fat. My left boob is smaller than my right one. Blogging and especially Instagram strive for perfection. I`d probably lie if I said that I don`t want to get the perfect selfie. But I have enough doubts on my own, I don`t need the media ideal of beauty to bring me down. I would agree to a Bruno Mars singing about my perfection though.

Anyways, I`d love to hear your thoughts on the Perfect Instagram Picture. Do you feel confident in front of a camera? Or are you more like me? Smile awkwardly and wave?

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  1. I have the exact same feelings as you lovely and it's almost a relief to hear that other people feel the same, you do look fantastic though so never feel that you dont :)

    Rosy | Sparkles of Light Blog
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    1. Thank you so much! I think that when you see all those perfect pictures it`s hard not to let it get to you, but I`m working on that.

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  2. I never quiet know how to pose effortlessly so I avoid doing outfit posts.
    Kathryn /Cherries in the Snow

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    1. I don`t think I`ll ever know how to pose effortlessly, but I`m tryin to be more confident in front of the camera.

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  3. I definitely don't know how to pose either, it just feels so weird to me. I could do a selfie, but a full length one just leaves me clueless, like what do I do with my arms haha! i think that it is a bit sad thought where the whole instagram picture is seem as the norm, I do think there needs to be more diversity xx

    Velvet Blush

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    1. Yeah. I don`t want people to get me wrong because I don`t have anything against those people, but I am tired of stressing about looking perfect in pictures.

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  4. I'm not the best at posing for outfit photos either, but I really want to get better! Can't get any better without practise right?xx

    Hannah | luxuryblush

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  5. I think we're all our own biggest critics! Personally I also feel quite awkward when I'm out taking outfit photos, I've gotten a lot better over time and have learned more and more to just go for it regardless of who's around, but I can totally relate.

    http://skylish.co.uk

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    1. I get so shy if I have people around me, but I do hope I`ll be more confident in the future.

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  6. I'm definitely shy and don't like being the centre of attention, and as such I try to avoid being in pictures lol. I find it's best not to compare myself to others, especially with beauty blogging!

    Di from Max The Unicorn

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    1. Yes, comparing yourself with others can get so toxic.

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  7. Haha I know exactly what you mean. We went out yesterday to take some outfit pictures and I was like 'what do I do with my hands' I felt awkward and didn't know how to pose and from the 100 pictures we took, I was like 'delete that, delete that as well' and I was left with 20 mediocre photos!!

    Yiota
    PinkDaisyLoves

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    1. Thank you:)) I swear to God, I never know what to do with arms or legs either. I mean, I know what I should do, but I can never look OK when I try those poses.

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  8. you look great in these ;) I dont have a problem with posing to be honest but I wasnt always like that. I too was unhappy with my weight a few years ago and I did something about it. Now I feel more comfortable in my skin but I do have days when nothing works and I just wanna hide under my duvet :) it is really sad how we are never truly happy with ourselves and there is always at least one thing we'd like to change about ourselves. It's also sad how the media has twisted us all into thinking there is something wrong with us...
    Pam xo/ Pam Scalfi♥

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    1. Thanks for the loving comment Pam. Since we had our photo session I can honestly say that you`re a Pro when it comes to pictures. And guiding others, because the photos you took of me were fab.

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  9. I know how you feel, I always look so awkward in pictures that I haven't taken myself and I can always pick faults!

    Lauren x Huggled

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    1. Yes, it`s really hard not criticizing every picture of yourself, but we need to work on that.

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  10. I think it's quite natural to feel uncomfortable in front of the camera, I know I do and I take a lot of outfit photos. I have found the more you do it the less it seems awkward though.

    Have a lovely weekend and looking forward to see more outfit posts. Gemma x
    www.jacquardflower.uk

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    1. I am planning more outfit photos in September and I do hope I`ll get better and feel better in front of the camera.

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  11. This is myself as well - I think it's because I'm very uncomfortable around the camera and need to learn how to pose! Love the houses in your pictures- so colourful!

    Reine | Sincerely Reine

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    1. Those houses are a London sensation, everyone wanted a picture in front of them;)

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  12. I absolutely know what you're saying now, it takes so many tries to get photos of me that I approve of and want to put on my blog, and sometimes it can be so frustrating. As for a selfie? Even bloody worse! I'm known for taking countless selfies until one turns out fine, and then I look at it until I start hating it and I end up deleting it. :P


    http://www.couture-case.com

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    1. I don`t think I`ll ever get selfies, but I do hope to be more confident with body shots.

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  13. I guess it happens to everyone sometimes! It's okay not to be perfect all the time and not to know what to do!
    Have an awesome day!
    xx Kris

    https://dreamingofpink.wordpress.com

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    1. Thank you so much. You`re right, it is OK to embrace that you`re not perfect all the time and that you shouldn`t be either.

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  14. I think you look great and well done for putting yourself out there! I always struggle with selfies and just do the occasional one here and there x

    franklyflawless.com

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    1. I don`t think I`ll ever post a selfie, but I do hope to post more outfit photos.

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  15. This is a really interesting post and as someone who doesn't post photos of myself on my blog, I can completely see where you're coming from. I've got to say though, I actually prefer your photos and your gorgeous smile compared to those of bloggers trying to look aloof yet simply coming across as miserable. Keep doing you, I like it a lot!

    Musings & More

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    1. Thanks for the brilliant comment. I am not a big fan of the photos you mentioned either, but I appreciate the girls who mastered that art. I do wish we`d have more natural pictures though:)

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  16. I can so relate to this, I'm so awkward with posing. It used to make me feel bad but not anymore. I think you look pretty in these pictures, love the colour of your jacket. xx
    Coco Bella Blog

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    1. Thank you! I`m so happy that you`re more confident with pictures, hopefully I`ll get there soon. The jacket is actually from Primark. Best 12£ I ever spent.

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  17. I know how you feel, I definitely feel awkward in front of a camera!!xxx
    www.basicallyalice.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. I think we all do, but we need to embrace our faults and become more confident.

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  18. You're beautiful! And I think you look great! I'm definitely more like you. I'm not trying to be perfect. LOL I love the pictures you took. You're showing us who you really are. Many pictures out there are so unrealistic.
    http://www.averysweetblog.com/

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    1. Thank you! For a while I was so scared of these photos because I don`t fit with the norm. But I am an awkward person in real life and there`s no point showing something I`m not.

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  19. I know exactly what you mean, I've gained some weight and it's difficult to feel confident because the way my body feels is all a bit alien to me!

    Corinne x
    www.skinnedcartree.com

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    1. Yes. Your clothes don`t fit anymore and you`re in a weird state of: what do I do with my body? One thing that helped was throwing away all of my small clothes. I hope I will be slim again, but I don`t want to keep those as a reminder and stress myself.

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  20. What beautiful pictures, you look fab!! I always think I look really awkward too! It sounds like a good day too, my sister used to work on Portobello Road!!
    Have a lovely day :)
    Rosanna x
    Rose's Rooftop

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    1. Portobello Road is such a lovely area. I do think that I`d be stressed to work in such a crowded area, but at the same time I`d have such a lovely view.

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  21. I know my angles and it takes me a while to get the right one, but I try not to dwell on it too much now and just focus on my blog photo shoots. I feel you on the weight gain related to health issues. I'm so sorry you're going through that. I know first hand how it can be as I have gained about 14 pounds since I got sick and it's so hard, like you said, to get used to it and the changes that happen to our bodies. Confidence definitely comes from within, and honestly you do look beautiful. I wouldn't say you looked awkward or anything, the more confidence you exude in your photos and the more confident you are, people respond to that and take you as confident too :) Don't worry about anyone else, we're all unique individuals and none of us are the same. We can't be someone else and someone we're not :)

    Raindrops of Sapphire

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    1. Thank you, it`s so nice to talk with someone that understands. Like I said, I don`t consider myself fat, but it is hard to get used to these changes. But like you said, confidence comes from within and I do hope I`ll learn to embrace this new me.

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  22. You look fantastic, girl! But I know exactly how you feel. I've gained weight after medication the last few years and I'm struggling to lose it, but we will get there! :)

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    1. Yes we will! I think that one thing that a lot of people don`t understand is that it`s hard to lose weight after a medical condition. I`ve had friends telling me that my weight is out of control and that I need to do something about it. And I was trying to explain them that I tried, but it`s not that easy.

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  23. I certainly don't feel confident in front of the camera. I feel awkward and weird. I don't know how to pose or how to look at least okayish. But I'm slowly gaining confidence when it comes to portraits. Yes, I look weird or awkward sometimes in the photos but it's okay :)

    -Leta | The Nerdy Me

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    1. Exactly, why should we feel ashamed of looking awkward? We`re human beings, not supermodels.

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  24. You look gorgeous. I was camera shy a few years ago but I decided this is not what I want from myself. Now camera is my best friend. Great post <3

    Xoxo,Khloe
    http://khloelocom.weburl.ro/21-lessons-learned-turned-21-years-old/

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    1. Thank you. I hope that by this time next year I`ll feel confident in front of the camera.

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