Here we go again

Hello, everyone! In case you were wondering, I am still alive! I know I stopped blogging for a couple of months, but it seemed wrong doing it if the content was not decent. I did not have much spare time and to be frank, my heart wasn`t in it. I know blogging isn`t like Youtube, you can`t tell if I am in a bad mood, but it seemed wrong to pretend that I am OK when that wasn`t the truth. A few things happened since my last post, continue reading if you`re interested.


The thing that took most of my time was moving. We have finally left the flat and found a nice, little house. There`s a garden, a big kitchen and a bathroom with a bathtub (hello Lush bath bombs),  things I did not have in my crappy apartment. But obviously there`s a catch: the house is in zone 6, and it just took me a while to get used to it. I also have an hour journey to work, and that`s annoying, but I always bring a book with me, so at least I`m doing something productive. Like always, when dealing with stress my health goes to hell. I recently discovered I have some heart problems, but now everything`s under control. That`s not the point, though.

I had to go home to do my tests because in here nobody was taking me seriously. I know many people have to wait for medical appointments, that`s the way the system works. However, it felt like people were treating me differently based on my nationality. Like I don`t matter as much as someone that was born here. Still, I tried not to let it get to me.

And then came the Brexit! Before I get hate comments, I don`t mind if you were for or against leaving the EU. You have to do what you think it`s right for you; I get that. However, that does not give you an excuse to bring someone down. Right after the vote, I was taking the bus from work and a couple of drunk guys started calling me names. Again, I tried to be the better person and not let it get to me. But another incident happened a few days after that when a lady (possibly drunk) called my 3-year-old niece an ugly, European rat. How can anyone say bad things about a baby? I know alcohol affects your judgement, but it was still hurtful.

For months, I tried to keep my cool, but at one point it was enough! I had moved to London 4 years ago, and I have been working ever since. I pay my taxes and mind my own business. But for some people, your nationality is worth more than your actions. For days, I was in a bad mood and even considered moving back home. But you know what? You can`t let bullies win! Yes, it sucks that some people call me names and are rude. But I have met some wonderful people as well, who have welcomed me with open arms.

This post looks like such a huge rant, and I`m sorry for that, I just wanted to let you know why I haven`t been active lately. Not to worry, though, now I`m in a good mood, and I can`t wait to interact with you more. 

4 comments

  1. brexit has really brought out the worse in people and I hate it too! im so sorry you had to witness the stupid drunk bitch call your niece that :/

    hope all is well with you otherwise!
    Pam xo/ Pam Scalfi♥

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    1. Thank you so much for your comment! I am OK now, glad to be blogging again:)

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  2. Welcome back! It looks like a lot happened since you were away. I am so sorry about hearing your heart problem, I hope it is not something major, just take care of yourself! I had some health issues like 3-4 years ago and back then the health system was good, I was in the hospital for 12 days and they did their best to make things better. However now it is impossible to get an appointment, system needs to change I guess.
    It is sad to see what's happening after Brexit. Fair enough everyone has their own opinion about it but it doesn't give them right to just bully others. My husband is German and he thought about leaving the country after Brexit after reading all these bullying on the news. No one has right to put others down, hopefully all these people will change their attitude and learn to live together. I am so sorry that you had to go through it :( Just ignore them, ignoring them is the best thing you can do!

    Ela BellaWorld

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words. I am doing my best to ignore the snarky remarks and focus on the positive ones.

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